Getting crazy?

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I have been reflecting on the tension I am experiencing between the need to have everything figured out before I start, and taking action and figuring things out as I go.

There’s a part of me that wants to have everything sorted, categorized, planned , strategized, and figured out. I like making a plan and then sticking to it. I like developing a structure and then working within it. I like the feeling of safety and consistency that comes along with that. The story I’ve been telling myself is that everything needs to be in place in order for me to be professional and credible.

And then this other part of me knows that I need to take action and have something underway in order to figure it out. The boat has to be in motion before the rudder can take effect.  The more I talk about what I do and how I help people, the better I get at understanding the nuances of the value that I provide and the better I get about explaining it to other people. My experience has shown that there’s nothing like a date in the calendar for a speaking engagement or event to get me moving and producing.

I read this book years ago about an organization that had the motto of “hurry up and fail”. Knowing that it would take several attempts before a new idea was refined, they wanted the try and fail process to happen as quickly as possible. So they created an environment that encouraged their employees to “hurry up and fail”. That all seems well and good in an organizational or corporate environment and… I am having difficulty translating this concept into my life as an entrepreneur.

Because bottom line is, I hate to fail. There’s this part of me that desperately wishes  I could be an expert at something that I am still a beginner at. The fact that this is completely unrealistic doesn’t seem to keep me from wanting it.

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The thing about being  an entrepreneur that no one tells you is that while you are an expert at your skill set—which is usually the service or offer of your business—there is SO MUCH that you are going to be a beginner at, and when you begin, you’re going to have little to no experience around some fundamental pieces. For me, these things are marketing, sales, creating irresistible offers and such.  You end up learning a lot of things through trial and error. Mostly error. You try something, see if it works, and if it doesn’t you try something else. Even when it does work, there are always tweaks to be made to improve it for the next time. This is the reality of getting good at anything new.

Of course this truth is painful for the perfectionist in me–the perfectionist that wants to have everything figured out. Surrendering into the notion of figuring things out as I go requires me to release my attachment to perfection. This brings awareness to how important some things are to me, like what people think of me, and being perceived by others as professional and credible.

I’ve been practicing letting go of these concerns, as they prevent me from moving forward and taking imperfect action.  It goes against my grain and makes me feel a bit crazy at times. That’s when I am reminded of a song  I love, by Seal: Crazy.

As an entrepreneur, there are so many ways that we have to get a little crazy in order to survive. Just being an entrepreneur will be perceived by many as a crazy undertaking.

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And at the end of the day, I’m finding that my best strategy is to just embrace the crazy. It’s part of the journey.

I’m curious in what ways you have embraced your crazy and found that to be a great survival strategy. Share your thoughts in the comments below.

 

Listen to Crazy, by Seal here:

Youtube version here:

 

Lyrics

“Crazy”

A man decides after seventy years
That what he goes there for
Is to unlock the door

While those around him criticize and sleep

And through a fracture on that breaking wall
I see you my friend and touch your face again
Miracles will happen as we trip

But we’re never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we’re never gonna survive unless
We are a little
Crazy

Crazy are the people walking through my head
One of them’s got a gun to shoot the other one
And yet together they were friends at school

If all were there when we first took the pill
Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe
Miracles will happen as we speak
But we’re never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we’re never gonna survive unless
We are a little
Crazy
No no we’ll never survive unless we get a little bit…

Oh darling
In a sky full of people only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy?
In a world full of people only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy?
Crazy

In a heaven of people there’s only some want to fly
Ain’t that crazy?
In a world full of people there’s only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy?
Isn’t that crazy? Isn’t that crazy? Isn’t that crazy?

But we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy crazy
No we’re never gonna to survive unless we are a little crazy
But we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy crazy
No we’re never gonna to survive unless we are a little crazy
No no never survive unless we get a little bit…

 

1 comment

  1. Jean-Yves Marc Deroubaix February 24, 2014 at 12:08 pm Reply

    I loved this article! It reminds me that it´s like learning languages. You´ve gotta be a bit crazy to start wanting to talk to people whom language you know nothing of, but you just start trying to communicate with the very few words you do know. Then, you have to strive to listen to the way people talk; you catch a few words here and there and you venture to place them in your ¨conversation¨ and see how they fit. You will eventually make a lot of mistakes but you will definitely learn. The thing is to be humble enough to admit and recognize that you do err, but don´t let it stop you. As you began to aquire more vocabulary, you already can start trying to read. You might not be able to read out loud in the beginning, because you have little knowledge of the pronounciation, but as you read some articles here and there, you keep listening to people and try to respond verbally. Like the Bible verse says, as they went they were healed; as you listen, listen, listen and read, read, read, you will definitely make progress. Another thing you need is to be genuinely interested in the language you learn; just like anything you learn in life. Errare humanum est! Intelligent people will not think you´re dumb for not speaking their language; they´ll think you´re smart because you ARE learning something new, learning to communicate in THEIR language. I´m french and that´s how I´ve learned English, Portuguese and Spanish. I made lots of mistakes and, of course, I still do, and some are pretty funny, but I sure can express myself as I talk and write in these languages. It´s true that I´m a bit nut and pretty bold, or I´d say a bit bold and pretty much of a nut (Ha!) but I got to do what I wanted to do.

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